Could you ever imagine such beauty to found at an industrial factory?
Once again my plans on working out the problems of wanting to be accepted while discovering my purpose has gone astray. I am sure as a Christian the only acceptance one seeks is Christ’s love and all other should fall to the way side and in hopes one day I will be in full agreement and would be side tracked from my path.
The purpose is clearly an important route to be on, it is everything that governs our life whether we are seeking the Lord or not. If you are empty of dreams, goals the basis of most purposes what is the objective? It’s the tool we call upon to leap hurdles to get these desires off of the ground, isn’t it?
Learning about the Lord’s way is a higher purpose in my book but it also feels that I could create and understand how a rocketship is built would be easier in time than me coming into terms of knowing Christ. When I mean knowning Christ is how do I know it’s Him that I am hearing?
I have read books Christian books to instruct me on understanding His goals His words and they always say when He wants you still He will tell you, when He wants you to move likewise. There has been times in my life I could swear it was Him and it wasn’t. I never fell so hard so fast on my face in those times.Didn’t care for the face plants, they chipped my self esteem and skinned my knees.
Would imagine during those times I had lacked a foundation, certainly a foundation of understanding, even now wonder if this blogging idea is way too premature. Just learning the Bible only at Genesis, so calling on verses for guidance is not natural when I don’t comprehend them just yet.
Genesis is just a thought on where to begin my lessons and it seems natural to start at the beginning. I know the story of Adam and Eve so why not go there?
One reason for me to not be there and I know it is listening to the wrong voice but there is one question and one question that not one human being can answer and that is why in the whole universe was Satan placed here on earth? It’s like putting a cat in your bird cage it would not take long before you have no birds and feathers everywhere.
This idea needs to find a place in the trash for it will not help me in my lessons, I know all too well it hinders me but on days like today when my menopause is having a field day it stays stuck to my fingertips as if it were dripping with maple syrup.
As much as I am perplexed and want to move out from a bad habit of dwelling on the negative and end with a good note of gratitude for the Lord I was able to listen for nearly two hours to only Christian music before switching back to my heavy metal. That is a giant leap for me! Doesn’t sound like much to most but I do love my rock music and it is one of the reason for my kicking and screaming onto my path, that and my last face plant going into this life of learning His will was so very painful.
Maybe if I write in what I was reading will help my memory and maybe make it solid in my thoughts so my reading today was in the KJV in Genesis 3:16-19
“Unto the woman he said, I will greatly multiply thy sorrow and thy conception; in sorrow thou shalt bring forth children; and thy desire shall be to thy husband, and he shall rule over thee. and unto Adam he said, because thou hast hearkened unto the voice of thy wife and hast eaten of the tree, of which I commanded thee, saying Thou shalt not eat of it; cursed is the ground for thy sake; in sorrow shalt thou eat of it all the days of thy life; Thorns also and thistles shall it bring forth to thee; and thou shalt eat the herbs of the field; in the sweat of thy face shalt thou eat bread, till thou return unto the ground; for out of it wast thou taken; for dust thou art and unto dust shalt thou return.”
* photo found on Yahoo search link: http://www.permamatrix.net
This would be a good place for me to write my thoughts on this lesson but finding with my moody mind to not mess with perfection of His word but if someone would like to use it as their lesson and fill it their thoughts on the subject go for it. And if you are like me floundering on the ground go for it also….
Have a blessed day!
The Lost Lamb
*lamb photo KB hedweb.com
“Then they cried to the Lord in their trouble, and he saved them from their distress; he sent out his word and healed them, and delivered them from destruction. Let them thank the Lord for his steadfast love, for his wonderful works to humankind”
I had prepared this blog earlier before hearing the news and actually believe I had hit publish now I wonder? Do I keep it as it was or change to reflect the events of today?
Problem is we are always being hit with news that is more often unhealthy, adding nothing more than stress when there is so much out there that can be encouraging. While the problems of the Colorado incident grieves me dearly, just can’t allow fear to be ruling another day in my life.
Don’t know if I am explaining this correctly but fear is my issue. No I am not afraid of things like walking from my car in a parking lot late at night, been doing it a very long time. What I am afraid of is trusting others including God with my heart and my desires for the life that would be one I crave for. Afraid that I may not land a job before my EDD runs out, came close to losing my home last month, the stress of that is still gripping my chest and I fear for our country and it’s people using horrible situations like what happened as a reason for giving up our rights, our freedoms.
As I heard about the massacre for the first time by DJ’s on the radio, they were talking about what kinds of excuses will they come up with other than the person is a lunatic. There are no excuses for his behavior. As a new believer would say he has lost his way, gone off the deep edge, still the bottom line no one is at fault other than himself and no when a person leaves the perimeters of normalcy there are not enough safe guards to stop them. They do not see or feel what we do, the only thingsthat happens is our lives become restricted and not in a good way.
Those poor victims and their families what can you say? They need all the prayers they can get and so do we as a nation as a person living in a world that has been turned upside down.
Like I said my blog was written before noon and ever since then without the news seemed to be one where I have felt lost, living in a place where either I am not wanted or don’t belong. Being a fish out of water is pretty much normal experience for me, never have lined up with the people around me, when I do catch up it’s too late.
So while it seems it’s a good leeway into the title what is more important, belonging getting that necessary feeding of acceptance or having a purpose, will leave it for tomorrow. With the news blasting what we cannot bear in pain, feeling the hopeless of those people I’m leaving what was for a very brief moment a faint memory of what began as an amazing day by recapturing my peaceful blessing.
Today is an amazing day, the sun is out in full with a nice toasty warmth to it. I like heat especially when I am in a pool. Waiting on a table is a tall glass topped with ice, then freshly brewed black tea poured on the heaping frozen cubes bringing it to a perfectly refreshing temperature. No sugar to spoil this simple refreshment. While I only have the tea it is a fine day in time to enjoy the small stuff is so easy to do yet day in and day out I forget to be grateful, some times I am fixed on this idea that my task of seeking my purpose is too important, more important than the small tokens given each day.
As I sat down ice tea on my left of the redwood rocker under a shady tree planned on writing about why this path that I have begun, hence the title which is more important. Above purpose way above feeling accepted must be to find satisfaction in being idle in the Lord’s ways. Only in doing so can I see his small but generous gifts.
* Bible verse found through the link provided for Beliefnet